Lunacy

Sit I in darkness, she engulfs me, protects me
The rains soothing the wounds- calmly
Self wallowed in sadness, brutal and gory
Even you cant see- what this pain has done to me

Tear I into my own flesh, rip open wounds
Look into past, now my present- tis hollow
What now will the future hold? Is only sorrow
Twitching are my nerves, body extinguishing

My reflection is a serene me, in a white gown
Hair long and curly, my mirror so shows
Dancing merrily, envious to many
A glorious me, tempting and sensuous

And suddenly am being mocked, laughed at
Was stripped, naked- my body ghastly white
I still was dancing, like as though possessed
“She is a bloody lunatic”!! Voices started echoing

Even my own reflection is stabbing me
A refection so true, can’t be deceiving
I may be am a freaking lunatic
That’s what the world calls me- mad

Am crying, solemnly, for my eyes are dried
My body screams, my soul prays death
Am in pain, sorrow mighty killing me- slowly
But even you failed to see- what this pain has done to me

This love

Estranged and deserted, clueless my path

Standing in the middle of nowhere- lost

My mind guided my feet, felt blindfolded

A serene so this new word- felt divinity

Or were my senses dead, my heart numb?

That even pain and misery felt like a hymn

This is what your love did to me! Cripple

Never did you realize- your love was evil

You gave me everything- I later realized –

Tis was all at a price- even my sanity.

Now I hold tight to myself- for I feel cold

Alas! you played it well- u had me poisoned

Your love like opium had me addicted-

Though hemlock like tis love- destroyed me

I can’t live without your company- lonely

Neither can I live with you- I don love you

You never loved me- noble wretched!

You loved love, hidden you hated me

Tempting was your compassion, blasphemy!

But o what use? Am dying- at last mercy

You deceived me, or was I deceiving myself

I will miss you, your love so true, unique

But I was never worth it, was a bolder truth

Am leaving- bodily- I have lost, so have you!